A story
One year, I was full of emotions about a major experience in my life. This incident occurred when we took a group to India to take classes with saints. During this period, we experienced the life and death of our group partners, the indifference to others, and various... This kind of experience of bullying by authority led us to leave this spiritual organization after returning to Taiwan. We had fulfilled our duties in this organization and moved forward in almost all our work. Even our secular work was put second. But because We know that some things have become clear and are no longer suitable for us. Although we understand that everyone is doing the best he can do at the time, the emotion is always hidden in me. A year later, at that time There was a publication later on in the course. On the day when the publication was released, the things I had forgotten about were stirred up again, and my emotions came up instantly along with the memories.
I happened to be in a coffee shop at that time, so I talked about this publication with my two friends who were almost separated from each other forever. I found that I was still a little emotional. I originally wanted to say that it had been a year, but unexpectedly, the emotions seemed not as strong as I thought. light. Not long after, I went to the dressing room, and suddenly the inner guidance threw a sonorous word into my head: " Are you going to let us take these away? "
I opened my eyes and thought in surprise that I have been cooperating with my inner guides for so long. Shouldn't they understand that I am very committed to inner exploration and evolution, and am always declaring and asking for help to purify myself and let my soul be free? Logically speaking, they You should be cooperating with me to clean up and purify as usual, but you ask questions knowingly? ! Who wants to keep this garbage in their heart, nonsense and all, I rolled my eyes inwardly.
But they said back to me, " But we can't take away what you're holding on to. "
Suddenly, my consciousness seemed to be hit, what?! I entered into meditation, I held on tightly, but didn't I notice? Did I hold on tight? Impossible? Is there any?
Seeing that I didn't think it through, they continued, " If you decide to let us take these things away, you will have nothing to do with them from now on. "
My heart suddenly shook, what? It is no longer relevant, how could it be, how much time in my life have I devoted to accumulate those experiences, how many profound darkness and challenges of life have I experienced, how can it be irrelevant to me!
The thought at that moment also shocked me. It turned out that it was really something I had always wanted to be related to. It was me who held onto it tightly. Those memories, those pains, and those emotions seemed to be gone without them. The trace of existence was wiped out. It turns out that I didn’t really want to decouple from these.
I calmed down, truly faced this part of myself, and seriously thought about whether I could really accept that I would have nothing to do with it from now on, but I was also surprised. I didn’t expect that a certain part of myself didn’t want to let go. Now that I'm thinking about it, this conversation shocked me and made me see a part of myself that I didn't realize I had.
After thinking about it, I still regained my own true light. I said firmly, I decided, I don’t want it anymore, please take it away, really, thank you, thank you for your help and teaching.
Really let go
When we are truly willing to let go of the life events that affect us from the bottom of our hearts, and let those events seem to be just a script in a book and have nothing to do with us, then we can truly let go and be truly free.
We are often like this, always saying that we want to get rid of a certain situation or emotional state, but the real reason why we can't get rid of it is our own obsession that we are unwilling to let go. We may find many rational reasons for this obsession, making us seem helpless. Choice, you are forced to enter this game, but the reason why you really don't want to let go may be hidden somewhere without you seeing it, so we act out the plot that we want to get rid of but can't get rid of, but as long as we really see it from the heart, we can do it. By making the decision to let go, you can slowly escape from this state.
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